Dream Job, you say?
In the 40 years I've lived, I've never managed to actually answer the question "What do you want to do when you grow up?" I have been a nursing assistant, a secretary, an accounting tech, a bill collector, a telemarketer, a mom, a Mary Kay and Avon sales rep and a homeschool teacher.
This past year, I've been "recreating" myself.
The past several years have taken a toll on my body, mind and spirit, and this past year, I finally woke up to the fact that I've been trying to take care of my body and mind, but I've been utterly ignoring my Soul. And I realized, that I've never really asked my Soul what it wants. 2015 ended with a conversation something like this:
Ummm.. hi, Soul. What exactly is it you want me to be doing?
Have you ever talked to your Soul? It's not always the best at telling you what it wants. Oh for a communications class on talking to your soul! [Beware of what you ask for--you might get it!]
I told my lovely spouse that I needed some significant change in my life. Oh... What kind of change? I dunno. Spiritual change... I've gotta do something about my spiritual life, and figure out what the heck I'm supposed to be doing with my life-life.
We agreed to a couple of things, like more time alone, moving my laptop into the bedroom so I have some quiet space to work on my inner world and meditate, and setting aside a little extra cash so I could buy better walking shoes.
And... I started working on my insides. I started meditation, and I started walking. I paid better attention to my diet and what I ate. But mostly, I asked the Universe to give me a little help down here, and help me learn to how to listen to my Soul.
If you've never done this, I highly recommend it if you actually want to learn. If you're not totally ready and totally committed to learning, don't. Just. Don't. You will be sorry you did.
Because when you ask the Universe to teach you something, it will rain down lessons on your head like an Arizona monsoon storm. There will be lightening, thunder, and teachers and information coming your way so thick and fast that you can't catch your breath.
They might all be so subtle that you'll really have to look for them, but they are all around you, all the time. There's no getting away from the storm that you've unleashed.
When the student is ready, the teacher will appear, right?
It did. Within a week, I had a cloudy little picture of what I was supposed to be doing, so I dug at it some more. An email came in that gave me a clear feeling of "This.. do this and do this NOW." Then another, and another. As I felt my way through these emails and offers and information, the picture came in clearer. I got a view of what I was supposed to be doing, and I committed to those parts that were clear.
And then, another email came in. Now I've committed to doing something with my life that my Soul loves, I've got this email in my box that is a schedule of FREE classes that are coming up on a week that my daughter and hubby will be out of town, and these classes are all about having and running soul-based businesses, doing what your soul wants you to do, and how to achieve, define and handle success.
Well, duh.
"Here's your sign."
Out of that week of classes back in February, I've made connections I'd never dreamed of. The more I ask for clarity about anything in my life, the more clarity I'm given.
I wanted to have a business where I could use my creative talents for helping others heal. I make stuff. I read. I write. I wanted to put these skills to use to provide for my family. But I wanted the healing part of my business to be intuitive and energy based. I did research. I wrote out exactly what I wanted my life to look like in 3 years. I was still feeling my way through this.
I should mention that I'm a Gemini, and we like to day dream... We never plan simple projects. Ever. Our projects tend to run off in a hundred different directions and we end up feeling a bit like the guy getting pulled apart by 4 or 5 horses. This was me at this point.
I had this idea that I could do life coaching, financial coaching, crystal healing, Reiki, write books, write a blog, design my own websites, and... and... and...
I didn't even know what the heck Reiki was. I knew that it was a kind of energy medicine used in massage therapy. And that. was. all. I. knew. But I was going to learn it, yes I was!
Then, reality came crashing down. Reiki courses run thousands of dollars. Crystal healing courses aren't much better. We have maybe $40 a month in disposable income. This wasn't happening on my own here, folks. So, what did I do? Oh, right. I went back and asked the Universe for a little help. This is what my Soul thinks I should be doing, and I have no idea how the heck we're going to swing it, so... a little help here?
"Here's your sign."
24 hours later, another email pops into my in box from a very lovely teacher about a week of free exploration into the intuition. Well, duh. Yes, I'm there.
I struggled through that week. It felt right because I was learning how to listen to my Soul. It felt scary because it challenged a hundred beliefs I'd held all my life. It felt confusing because I wanted so much more than just a week of this.
I went to the final online class for the course. I cried through it because the ritual at the end touched me deeper than I'd ever felt anything before. And the teacher offered something that I never in a million years would have expected. She offered her intuition course at price I could afford! On top of that, she was throwing the first level Reiki training in free. There were other things she was gifting as part of signing up, but I think at that point, I wasn't hearing anything she was saying. I was in tears, wanting to know from my husband if it was okay to commit part of our income to this.
And there it was. I was on my way to making things happen.
I've refined a lot of the details since I wrote that first plan back in February, but my dream is becoming reality. We've started our used bookstore (online only for now, more on that later), and I've begun writing for more than just fun. The Reiki training is clicking along nicely, and by the end of next year, I should have completed my master-level training.
Does all this seem a little too wishy washy to you?
Would it simplify things if I just said this:
My dream job is to have my own used book shop, with a space for doing Reiki and crystal healing work and to write stories that touch women on a soul-deep level so that they, too, can recognize that little voice in side asking them to do what their Souls want them to do.
The top of my bucket list?
To have a used book shop and Reiki and crystal healing practice and write awesome stories...
I'd also like to travel around Scotland and Ireland, dive the Great Barrier Reef and celebrate one of the solstices at a stone circle. We make our own dreams come true, right? So why not!
Live large, lovelies.
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